~sati~ pt33

Part 33

Geet had spent her last few years avoiding his thoughts.. but he had eroded a place deep in some corner  of her heart just  like a sea shell would do by boring against a rock. The making of the place had been her pain. But now shell was safely in the rock. It was lodged & restrain no longer… just as a part of her.

She changed her dress & packed some change of cloths for Daadi. She informed Meera & went to hospital.

There were so many things that didn’t make sense in the maze.. she was the person with whom he took vows was hitting deep with in.. with that was million of other confusion. He didn’t want to talk to Dev but was forced to .. he knocked at his rooms door.. still uncertain if he wanted to clear it with him. He didn’t .. he turned to leave..when his eyes fell on his wedding nap that was kept on Dev’s dressing table with other pics. The anxiousness in her eyes.. the smile that adored her lips with a complete blush giving away her shyness.. the beauty herself.. he had never seen any of this before.. not even in those several encounters. He had seen her cheeks losing color .. becoming drawn in pain. Dev – bhai Maan just left from there. He didn’t want to speak to anyone right now.

If only he could hold himself together.

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It was late in the evening.. visiting hrs was over.. Geet settled Daadi in the bed after the drs night rounds. She washed her face, finished her prayers & sat on the couch next to Daadi.. he slowly came in & silently sat beside her. Her eyes was fixed at Daadi who had all that gadgets attached to her.

It won’t be wrong to say the greater your capacity to love, the greater your capacity to feel the pain. But then he knew with love one should go ahead & take the risk of getting hurt.. & she was only his serenity in all means. His heart was beating crazily.. with the heaviness along. He couldn’t bear it any more.

I..,  he took a deep breath.. I didn’t know it was u I know..  she knew that as a matter of fact. They both had not met. Only she knew the pain of loving some one.. who didn’t even know she existed. His restlessness became more .. why did they say all that abt u.. she kept mum now her silence hit him hard.. he just believed wat he wanted to.. not once did he try to find out the truth. main aaya tha tumhe lene.. he spoke hiding his guilt phir se chodne keliyen.. she spoke accusingly still looking at daadi

She was right. He had planned to tell her his stand. His anger on self was building.. his ego was long crushed in front of her.. only the pieces within suffocated. dammit why did they say all that.. even ur family refused to meet me because I chose this anguish over … fear clouded her eyes & the thought that she didn’t even know whose body was in her lap.. that body falling apart..numbed her.. like she could still feel that cold thing in her lap right now. Daadi got up hearing him questioning her.
Daadi spoke in a weak voice because they wanted to sati her with the body they thought was yours. The fear in her eyes now mirrored in his. They wat..his mind screamed..
agar hum sahi samyen pe wanha nahi aaten tho.. Daadi cried .. his heart felt would burst right now in the pain.. he looked at her…every time she stood numb seeing fire.. right now with the thought of it probably … itself was enough for him understood the anguish she would have faced.

Who followed sati in this age he wondered.. & but there she sat a burning reality.. bearing the burden of his ignorance.. arrogance.. him itself..won’t be wrong to say. He hit his head back hard on the couch.. clenching his fist.

Geet excused herself not wanting to think about that dark moment. Daadi poured out all Geets suffering of past years only to feed his head with rage & furry. Every pain she suffered called out to his mistake. Every day of her loneliness attributed to his absence. He could kill himself hundred million times still wouldn’t justify anything. The blandness of her food to the absence of shades in her life… oh.. he ..he & only he.. was responsible for every little thing.. Daadi felt so choked in guilt bicahri ne tho tume kabhi teehk se dehka bhi nahi

The pain in him bottled to an extent it busted out on her as she walked in the door after couple of hrs. maine ne kaha tha tume aisen jine ke liyen? He screamed at her meri zindagi main khamiyin kuch kam thi jo tumne.. he sighed yet again pouring his pain (wasn’t my life sinful enough that u added ..) yeh kya kiya tumne Geet he cried holding her cupping her cheeks aur kya karti main she asked pushing his hand away in shear hatred & anger aapne batnaseeba ka rona roti rahti kosthi rahti apno ko.. his heart skipped a beat hearing her address him among apne still he knew she was accusing his plight.. he did that!! he was sulking at his loneliness.. he was blaming his relations.. even her.. he grit his teeth & turned his head not able to bear her words & piercing painful gaze. she turned his face harshly to face her aur meren armaano ka kya?..

jo sir aap se juden the..

jo kaak ho gaya uss raat ..

unse jude bebasi ka kya.. ? “ek vidhwa ko tho mehsoos karne ka bhi haaq nahi humren smaaj main” she got really mad & he could understand it was more of anger right now.. when she just stepped away from him & questioned “yaa phir koi dost dhunlethi aapne..” “GEET” he threatened.. clearly knowing she meant Sam & him, but then closed his eyes clenching his fist.

God lord.. the sight of seeing ur husband in some one else arm!!! only he knew how he lived last 24hrs assuming she was Dev’s wife. It was iniquitous in every possible way still his heart bleed seeing them together.

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~sati~pt 32

Part 32

Geet would have left at once but her ticket was booked for 2 days latter & Daadi ‘s health was also scaring. She wiped her tears & sat next to Daadi. Daadi – hume maaf kardijiyen Geet ..daadi cried Geet smiled weakly – nahi Daadi aap aisen mat khaiyen Daadi – Maan Geet fluuttered her lashes & looked away.
Daadi’s health deteriorated to worse. Dev & Geet had to rush to the hospital.    

Maan stayed back in his room. He called the airlines to reschedule his tickets. He wanted to leave the very next day but now wanted to leave only after seeing Daadi back from the hospital. He still didn’t go to see her in hospital. He was scared to feel anything. He didn’t want relations to get close to his heart & then get hurt, like always.

He couldn’t forgive himself for have fallen for that women so hard. How stupid he was.. all their encounters played back in his mind one after the other.. the moments that uncontrolled emotions.. that impeccable pull. He sunk down on the floor.. heart filled with fears.. unknown!!!like something was slipping away.

Geet & Dev just feared it shouldn’t be another heart attack.. & the dr confirmed it was not. They sighed in relief. But dr warned strictly not to stress her she was close to one though. They kept her in the hospital for a day more. Dev & Geet came back after picking up Maanav from the day care. The drive was silent. Dev all the while was wondering how to comfort Geet… & Geet had drawn into a deadly silence ever since she had discovered her husband.. which seemed more scary than the loneliness she had build around herself.

Maanav dossed off in her lap. Geet & Dev came in.. Maan starred at them.. a complete family.. he knew he didn’t belong anywhere here. He just wanted to know Daadi was fine & he would go far away from all this. Far away.. to no where.. he took a deep breath.. Dev – bhai Daadi teehk hain. They will discharge her tomorrow. Maan looked away like it didn’t mean anything to him.

Geet carefully took Maanav to the room. Meera rushed in with her cute full term bump.. crying straight into Dev.. yeh sab kya hogaya. Daadi teehk tho hain na he tried to calm him.. patting her softly.. tumhe iss haal main travel nahi karna chahiya tha Geets eyes welled seeing her after so many years.. oh.. she looked so adorable.. she smiled seeing them together & hugged Maanav closer, reminded how Meera looked while she was carrying him.

Meera’s mom followed. Daadi kaisen hain beta.. her words dropped mid air when she saw Geet holding Maanav. She marched straight to Geet & snatched Maanav from her.. without caring she was waking him up.

A pair of eyes flinched in pain with that behavior towards Geet. He didn’t want to feel anything but it hurt him .. hit.. him.. deep down. He didn’t want to interfere still he was walking towards her.. he was getting mad at her more.. to always get into situation that irritated him.. forced him to interfere, how could some one just snatch a baby like that.. who was that lady.. wat kind of a man his brother is..letting someone speak to Geet like that.. though the evil part of him wanted to believe she deserved it.

Maanav began to whine in his sleep. Meeras mom irritably shouted at Geet, rula diya na bicharen ko Meera kitna baar kaha tumhe dur rakho issen aapne parivar se aur yeh kya foreign jaake vidhwa bhi maang bharne lagi hain aaren ek bar tho Dev ke maren huin bhai ke baren main socha hota

Meera begged her mom to be quiet.

Maan just stood their seeing her walk into the room hurt, not wanting to answer anyone. She never did. He knew that by now. He held her elbow relating the words spoken… unspoken yeh sab kya kah rahin thi? Kya.. she asked coldly..

she is been hearing all this for years but now to hear the same thing when he was right there.. was hurting more, how much more it could hurt, how much more same mean words feel differently hurtful.

 

the fact was cruelly revealed to him.. so bluntly he looked at her forehead & every other plainness.. emptiness ..that he had conveniently, deliberately ignored though it was screaming out to him all the while.

Dev took crying Maanav to his room..  Meera dragged her mom to the kitchen & told her to shut her mouth before Maan losses his sense totally.

The storm of cry faded leaving the air clearing engulfed in pain of silence, thick burdened with unbearable guilt, his hard grip around her elbow softened with every passing sec as realization of the impeccable pull to be those vows he took with her!!! she looked at his loosened grip & then at him before going to the guest room. Geet the word died inside leaving him perplexed.

All this while his hands wanted to hold her, his feet were wanting to chase after her.. never knowing she was right their beside him.. all he had to do was take her hand hold it close tight never to leave. A tear escaped the dark pairs discovering that there was something more painful than falling in love with someone who hasn’t fallen for you.

Geet had spent her last few years avoiding his thoughts.. but he had eroded a place deep in some corner  of her heart just  like a sea shell would do by boring against a rock. The making of the place had been her pain. But now shell was safely in the rock. It was lodged & restrain no longer… just as a part of her. 

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~sati~pt31

PART 31

meren bhai ki zindagi barbad ki kaafi nahi.. u r playing with my life? He threatened her .. but this time u chose a wrong person to trap!!! Maan Singh Khurana

I will make sure u r out of all her lives. She closed her eyes wondering if there was anything left to bear!!

he held her arm & dragged her out to the main door ..thats how Daadi saw him. Maan yeh aap kya karen hain.. chotiyen issen yeh koi tariqua hain Geet se baat karne ka I will not tolerate her in this house Daadi ma he roared Geet iss ghar ki bahu hain!! main nahi jaanthe thi aap itna gir sakten hain Maan.. Daadi spoke disheartened. It was her pain.. her one wrong decision spoiled Geets whole life. Had Maan given a slight hint abt his love life Daadi would have never interfered.

Daadi did know all the hardship Maan faced bringing up Dev alone. Losing parents at such tender age would have been so difficult. So Daadi wanted him to get a life partner who could pamper him.. give him all that he missed all this years.. not that a girl of his choice wouldn’t have.. but she was worried after seeing wat Dev settled with. Daadi had seen Dev suffering with Nt. She didn’t want Maan to make a choice & regret like Dev was. Moreover she was not sure if he could find such brides in US.

Daadi how could u support her Daadi was already heart broken.. all this just made her week & vulnerable to another attack. Geet got really angry seeing daadi’s plight.. plz aap chup hojayin she told him in a very calm voice her eyes pleading yet spitting fire.. even though at this moment he hated himself but still obliged. He could have slotted his heart to still feel for her.. still his heat beating for such a women. Dammit she is ur brothers wife!!!! he cursed himself.

He just left straight up to his room.. the room that was his since childhood. He was the only kid who had a different room. He was pampered then.. Daadi.. him, dad & mom. It was their cute little family.. he had very few memories of those days.. he was very young when they had moved to US. Even back then Daadi used to take care of business so he hardly had much time with her.

The room looked painfully dull.. but it screamed her essence.. but there was also a very strange loneliness.. sadness that lingered. Painful ..heartbroken.. just complementing his plight. He looked around.. the place had completely changed. No bed.. no furniture.. simple curtains.. his portrait from school graduation was missing. He punched the wall in frustration.

Dev stormed into the room & hugged him from sideways..bhai.. bhai.. bhai.. he screamed like a small kid.. breaking down.. seeing him in skin, in real was over whelming.. & the fact that he still knew his bhai !! he still knew bhiaya would come to kick his butt. Bhai.. I missed missed u missed u so much.. u don’t even know hum sabne aapko kitna miss kiya.

His words didn’t mean anything to Maan. If he really missed him so much all this years wat stopped him from calling him.. wat stopped him from dropping a mail.. Maan stiffened trying to compose his weakening heart. Even Maan longed to be loved.. to be belonged!! but Dev chose to leave it all, leave his brother for that b****h.. his hatred grew..

 

Dev could sense his brothers anger. Bhai he said after breaking from the hug & wiping his tears. He knew his bhai was angry with him for that legal paper, thingy.. but in heart he knew it is just matter of time.. the moment bhai knows it was just a prank to get him here.. he will forgive him.. not before kicking him.. he grinned inwards.. when he felt a sharp sting on his face & another.. & another.. & another.. & another.. Maan didn’t seem to stop.. he was busting out his anger.. how could u play with someone life? Tumhe yeh sikaya hain humne? Ek bar nahi soucha papa-mama ke baren main wo sab kaafi nahi tha.. tum aab mera saat bhi Geet held Maan’s hand – aap ko koi haaq nahi banta Dev – Geet its ok Maan – mujhe haaq nahi.. he roared.. mujhe haaq nahi.. yeh kahne wali tum kaun hoti ho she looked away snapping his hand in anger aap ko koi haaq nahi banta
aab  aaken ussen kuch kahne ka tumari himat kaisen himat hum bhaiyion ke beech aane ki where were u all this years ?

tum tho thi na uske saat, tum ne kya kiya?

Dev – bhai Maan raised to hit him again.. Geet held his hand again.. stop it Mk meren hoten huin aap aisen kuch nahi karsakten he held her hand & dragged her out to the door… tumhari jagah idar hain.. humaren ghar se.. humaren zindagi se bhahar, & shut the door on her face.

Dev came running & opened the door.. bhai .. plz.. & he painfully looked at Geet.. Geet plz.. tum room main javoo, let me talk to bhai first Maan threatened – u have to chose between me & her Dev Dev – lekin bhai.. that’s not a choice.. she was here because of him he felt choked at the irony Maan – I don’t want her in our lives.. she has already ruined everything. If u have a little bit of love left in ur heart for me.. just leave her Dev was totally lost & didn’t understand how to handle.   

Geet would have left at once but her ticket was booked for 2 days latter & Daadi ‘s health was also scaring. She wiped her tears & sat next to Daadi. Daadi – hume maaf kardijiyen Geet ..daadi cried Geet smiled weakly – nahi Daadi aap aisen mat khaiyen Daadi – Maan Geet fluttered her lashes & looked away. Daadi’s health deteriorated to worse. They had to rush to the hospital. Dev rushed with Geet.

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~sati~pt 30

Part 30

He so much missed her. He closed his eyes letting the tears shed.. his heart ached to be in her arms. His thoughts began to cloud with her.. this sweet unknown feel.. he never thought would come his way. He had closed all hopes to such emotions… but never thought he would feel for her. He took a deep breath.

She had caught him off guard & blew him away in her. She simply captivated him.. the same way she did when he looked into her eyes.

Dev tried to call again.. but Maan didn’t pick up his call. By now he understood probably Maan was angry with him.. & he had a strong intuition probably his bhai did know something abt his deeds. Here Geet was trying to change college to different city she had made up her mind not to see him ever again. Dev was getting out of options… & then wat he did.. wat he knew would irritate Maan to the core. He was ready to face the brunt of it.. well if that makes his bhaiya & bhabhi close..he was ready to be the sinner. He filed a claim on the family house.

Maan was lost in his new feeling to seek peace from the memories of Dev. The notice from Dev, had the exact reaction wat he expected. Maan got really furious & mad. Not that he didn’t want to give him his share.. he would rather give him everything but filing a case.. how dare he!!!

It took Geet a lot to calm down. She got into her usual mediation schedule to calm herself & it worked. She was feeling better.. at least from outside. She didn’t get into a self destruction spree.  She continued her new routine with Maanav. The other day she was feeding Maanav, who was running around the living room.. nahi maa aur nahi maanav.. mujhe bhagavo nahi he ran looking at her & dashed at the one.. who held him hard.. would have burst out, but those eyes held him. All the rage had bottled up seeing the legal notice Dev had sent him. He was planning to throw the papers on his face & ask him looking into his eyes. He wanted to know is that wat he taught him? Is this their values? He had the guts to ask his own brother? & wanted to give her .. that b***h his piece of mind.

Like everything just vanished in thin air seeing her.. his eyes softened oh.. he had missed her so much before he could say anything.. the little maanav stepped back frightened.. maa yeh kaun hain, he said looking at him innocently Geet glared back at that one person whom she wanted to never see, took the frightened baby in her arms & turned to leave at once. Maan held her elbow in a mixed emotion. Maanav.. held geets cheek cutely.. maa.. yeh daddy ke bhai hain na Maan was totally confused! He looked at the boy & then at Geet! Her anger he couldn’t bare at that moment. Geet wanted to scream.. wanted hit him.. throw him out of her life.. her house.. .. she took a deep breath & told Maanav to go in.

She jerked her arm .. he held it back again.. she had not known abt dev’s legal notice.. all she knew was this guy was here after so many years when even ashes of her wishes are drown. She didn’t even have tears to shed over him. He turned her in a jerk.. only to meet the furious hazels.. his eyes slowly scanned the sindoor that adored her maang.. the change in color of her dupatta border. His softened dark eyes became cold.. a realization of events sunk in.. the little boy called her maa.. his grip around her elbow tighten in hurt. She winched in pain & tried to jerk him off.. struggling within to avoid him.. when every inch of her wanted to fight him.. yell at him.. scream at him.. where was he all these yrs. Why is he here today? Why did he leave her like that? Wat right he has to touch her? To look at her like that? Question her like this?

Maan couldn’t believe he actually fell for her trap. She was actually that very b***h!! she was that very person whom he abhorred from deepest of his existence. Was all this some game plan.. like she used Dev as bait to trap other innocent lives.. now his brother Dev stooped down so low to play games with his own brother.

He squeezed her cheek to face him..Yeh sab kya hian? He pushed her away harshly now disgusted. He was more broken than ever. She of all the person on earth !! he held her both arms & jerked her kyun? Kyun Geet? Iss property ke liyen? He threw the papers on her face tum main sharam waram hain bhi yah nahi? She looked at him more angered.. Mk.. stop it she spoke in sheer hatred chup tho tum raho gi? Khel liya jitna tumhe khelna tha mujhe se.. mere bhai se now wat was he accusing her off she wondered!!! meren bhai ki zindagi barbad ki kaafi nahi.. u r playing with my life? He threatened her .. but this time u chose a wrong person to trap!!! Maan Singh Khurana

I will make sure u r out of all her lives. She closed her eyes wondering if there was anything left to bare!!

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~sati~pt29

Part 29

But for Geet family mattered the most. She still couldn’t think of a person as her husband who cared a dam abt his Daadi & brother & portraying like he has nothing left in his life. Dammit she felt his tears were all crocodile tears now. His helplessness was his selfishness, his self – centeredness. She had seen daadi suffer.. bed – redden after they all believed he was dead. Even dev was not their for them. they had nothing in their life. the business was at the verge of closing.. daadi’s medical needs were demanding.. everything was his responsibility. he didn’t care!! that was not an enough excuse for her.

Dev had to speak to Geet. But before that he had to know abt his bhai. It was the best thing that had happened to him. He couldn’t be happier. So many things happened.. suddenly prison, divorce & then marriage with Meera ..the events that happened one after the other.. & the news his bro was no more.. all was too soon & difficult for him to comprehend. For him it was like his brother was there, far some where!!! He had still not come in term with the reality of his death. Even when Geet got admission in the same city as where they were brought up…he preferred to be quiet. He couldn’t think of his family house without his brother. Their house.. that city everything only made him feel..Maan his bhai was there some where.. Geet going there was like going to bhai.. he couldn’t have voiced his thoughts to anyone..it would have sounded so silly. But when he saw Geet first time filling her mang yesterday.. it was like dream come true!! thats why not even for a minute did his heart doubt it could have been mistaken identity.. something like u believe wat u want to believe. He had not seen his brothers body.. he had not seen him in India.. so he preferred to live in his brothers sweet memories. He had not contacted anyone after Maans death in US because he was heart broken & some where scared to face them. He didn’t even care abt their house in US.. since it meant nothing to him..without his bhai. Everything only reminded of him. Even the truth that bhiaya came to India only for him & then that accident made Dev more guiltier.

But now he had everything in his life .. his bhaiya.. most beatiful bhabhi.. he knows.. Geet is the best for his bhaiya.. especially knowing his bhaiya’s temper & mood swings, only Geet could handle him. Also he knows Geet is angry at him right now.. but his bhaiya agar manane pe aajayen tho  Geet won’t be able to stay away from his charm. Especially when he gets naughty. With all high hopes he called his bhai. His heart beat was rising with every ring.. he held his breath.. the moment Maan picked the call.. Maan was bit confused seeing an unknown number Maan very sceptically answered – hello oh.. god.. tears just poured hearing his voice.. Dev’s words choked bhai ..he said in a very weak tone Maan eyes burned instantly recognizing his little brothers voice. With that followed the bitter memories of past freshened. It was like yesterday… when he left her in the madap & took a car to the near by village where he had heard abt Dev & his wife. He was still not sure wat her name was!! one of his detective had just called with fresh information on his brother & his wife. It was so embarrassing to learn his brother actually deceived a girl’s & his wife was behind all this. Only next day he got to hear from the detective that they had flee to Canada.

He was broken beyond recovery.. his brother could stoop so low.. how desperate was he? Wat kind of women was that women who he is married to?. that she persuaded her own husband to marry another women for money .. this was worse than prostitution.. his anger had no limit. If he had seen Dev he would have buried him alive with his own bare hands.

It was his upbringing that reflected ..not Dev’s character itself. He cried for forgiveness to his parents… there was no forgiveness for such sins in his dictionary. He respected women in a different way.. but everything changed for him that day.. first was his Daadi who had been tricked him into the marriage by her nautanki heart attack, he was not close to Daadi so her false heart attack story only left an ugly image in his heart.. & this women who trade her husband for money was unthinkable.. above that they ruined someones life. And when he came back to his so called bride… whom he was planning to any way part ways, disappeared leaving their families. Her family too refused to talk to him. All that only broke him completely. How much he was trying to respect every relation.. everything seemed to play ugly tricks on him.

Bhai Dev said again not hearing any response from the other side. Maan held back all the emotions that was brimming wrong number he spoke in cold tone.. reflecting nothing but the hidden anger Dev could sense.
Before Dev could say another word Maan cut the call. He sat there numb!!! so much pain he endured only his heart knows. Daadi never lived with them in US so he was never close to her. Only family he treasured was Dev.

Maan had done everything he could to bring him up with good values but he could stoop so low to play with others life..tattered him… is that wat he instilled in him.. where did he go wrong in bringing him up ..he didn’t know. He punished himself mercilessly all this years in the darkness. Worst he didn’t have anyone by his side to hold him.. the only person who he could call right now he felt was Geet. He searched for her number.. disturbed Pari in her honeymoon.

Alas.. it only went to voice mail. He probably filled her mail box with his desperate voice messages. Not that he would have told abt Dev but he knew he could have just held her in his arms & world would have felt different.

He so much missed her. He closed his eyes letting the tears shed.. his heart ached to be in her arms. His thoughts began to cloud with her.. this sweet unknown feel.. he never thought love would come his way. He had closed all hopes to such emotions… but never thought he would feel for her like this. He took a deep breath. She had caught him off guard & blew him away in her. She simply captivated him.. the same way she did when he looked into her eyes. It felt so peaceful to divert his painful past to her sweet angelic essence.

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~sati~pt 28

Part 28

She touched the maroon golden album.. their name engraved together.. fresh layer of tears poured. The first pic was of the most beautiful bride.. & next to her was the most handsome him!!! Maan himself.. the crisp beard.. the red teeka that adored his forehead.. she shied for the first time in years.. it was him.. those eyes!!  her eyes flooded!!!!

As the tear dried her pain surfaced. The pain of his betrayal… she tore the album..one by one very patiently .. pain of his ignorance,  arrogance .. his believe… his disbelieve.. her entire life seemed meaningless. She couldn’t even rejoiced his life.. his presence anymore. He was not hers.. he didn’t care abt anyone, not abt Dev, not for Daadi.. then how was she even expecting him to think abt her. Her un seen dream shattered. It felt her life was much easier as his widow.. even the death as his Sati would have been a blessing but to lead life as a wife to a person who doesn’t even care abt u!!! care abt anyone else other than himself. The storm subsides momentarily the silence settles down again. That only speaks of him making her scream in anguish… the pain she buried deep with in. Her heart was again hollow.. void.. empty.

A new fight began within her ..her as a women.. to her as sati .. her believes & her  understanding. Nothing seemed to give her peace.. not her meditation.. nor her patience. She thrashed everything on the floor.. bursting out like a volcano.. all the suppressed anger, raged broke up.. she broke his frame.. he was not wat she thought him to be. Not worth to be respected.. & she worshiped him!!! she hated herself now, her existence..everything abt self!!  First time in her life hated her parents to have chosen a person like him for her. She didn’t dislike them when they numbly led her to be sati.. but today she was shattered. She believed that if she has to be his sati then he should have been nun less that Sri Ram himself!! & he was not even humane to respect her integrity. The maturity she showed then just vanished.. she hated his advances towards her now.. she hated .. she let him touch her.. to think abt it.. she never did!! he always forced himself on her!! she could clearly imagine her hopeless life with him had thinks been different. That loneliness seemed more desirable than this meaningless life.

It was more than 24hrs since Geet had locked herself in the room. Everyone was getting worried outside. Maanav & Dev were eager to meet her but she didn’t open the door. The whole night had passed & then next day evening.. Daadi told Dev to break open the door. The sight that awaited them was so scary. Geet sat in one corner of the sabotaged room. She had not slept a wink.. her eyes were blood red.. like her hands & legs that were hurt ..bleeding hitting the glass pieces. She was exhausted.. with the fire that consumed her inside. Daadi ran to her, tried to clean up the wound.. Geet snapped at once in annoyance. Daadi & Dev were taken a back. Before Daadi could say anything.. Dev noticed the blood stained mang of her  he fell on his knees..indicating Daadi to leave he put his all wit together – Geet aap bhai se Daadi sunk down next to her, Geet looked lifelessly at Dev & then at Daadi Daadi gasped covering her mouth in disbelieve. The look of the room ..& the album told them the state of her mind & heart Dev took her hand in his – bhai aise nahi hain jaisen aap soch rahi hain she shot an angered glare at him that was scaring & terrifying. Dev tried to calm her – Geet plz.. u calm down & tell me.. plz she was raged & snapped his hand back. Not wanting to talk abt that person.

Daadi asked Dev to leave her alone. Daadi took all her anger pain in her.

That night was filled with mixed emotions for everyone at home. Daadi & Dev had so many questions, but didn’t know how to confront Geet.

The following day Geet told nakul to shift her belongings to the guest room. She didn’t want to stay in his room.. she hated  it or was it her pain within.. that she never meant nothing to him.

Daadi was pained to see this poor soul going through so much in this tender age. Geet seemed little at ease when Maanav cling on to her the whole day. He held her pallu all the while. He refused to get off her lap. In the afternoon Geet was putting Maanav to sleep when Daadi came & sat beside her.. stream of tears began to flow from her eyes.. wo iss rishte ko nahi mante unhe yah koi bandesih lagthi hain unhe lagta hain ki main shaadi ke baad wanha se chali gayee thi woh aisen kaisen soch sakten hain merin baren main daadi? kyun Daadi.. ye sab mera saat hi kyun? Kyun Daadi? she shook daadi holding her arm crying like a small kid Kyun Daadi main ek normal ladkiyon jaisen jee nahi sakti kyun main sab ladkiyo jaisen khwab nahi dehk sakti main tho unki sati banki jeena ka haaq bhi kho diya he wants to marry Sam issen aacha tho main uss din .. Daadi immediately closed her mouth.. nahi beta aisen nahi kaho..

Dev heard their conversation from outside, he came in not able to take all this suspense. Dev – aap sameera di baat karen hain? Geet looked at him at lost Dev – sam di to bhai ki best friend hain Geet choked – aur unki mangetar bhi Dev smiled in hope – nahi Geet kuch confusion hain, Azaan bhaiya sam di ko pasand karten hain Geet looked at him in shock.. – how do u know all that Dev – di Azaan bhiaya, bhai aur Sam tho bachpan se saat hain. They have been with us all the while. & I have seen how Azaan bhiaya looks at her, waisen bhi bhai doesn’t look at Sam di like that. Wo tho unhe apna sabse pyari frd manthe hain Geet spoke dishearten – he is not the same person any more Dev tried to explain to her – Geet plz give bhai a chance.. manta hoon bhai se bahut badi bhool hui hain lekin Geet shot an agitated glare at him… his small mistake has ruined her everything. Had it not been Daadi she would have been dead now.. she even now felt dieing then would have been much better than learning this unbearable cruel, reality.

By now all of them were aware of Maan being alive & the confusion that happened when the car in which he was supposed to be traveling back from the other village met with an accident which led to all this confusion. .. hell dammit some ones life. Also understood Maans current relation with Sam.. from geets POV. But Dev was not ready to accept that. He knew his brother better.

Daadi didn’t want to force Geet into a relation especially after learning Maan wanted to move on.  But Dev was not ready to give up. Still there was lot unanswered questions why Maan didn’t peruse looking for Dev. & not coming back to Daadi was very obvious to Daadi.

Daadi dejectedly agreed they didn’t share a typical Daadi -pota relation & to add to his dislike she forced him to marry someone of her choice. Probably he didn’t want Daadi to force again into something.

But for Geet family mattered the most. She still couldn’t think of a person as her husband who cared a dam abt his Daadi & brother & portraying like he has nothing left in his life. Dammit she felt his tears were all crocodile tears now. His helplessness was his selfishness, his self – centeredness. she had seen daadi suffer.. bed – redden after they all believed he was dead. Even dev was not their for them. they had nothing in their life. the business was at the verge of closing.. daadi’s medical needs were demanding.. everything was his responsibility. he didn’t care!! that was not an enough excuse for her.  

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lots of love

muskan

~SATI~pt27

Part 27

The silence that followed , calmness as painful as an empty void. Everything just vanished as though never existed, even though it is imprinted deep with in. She failed to express the storm within & he failed to read the silence.

He bent down & lifted her shivering leg not knowing why her legs wobbled. She looked at him puzzled.. her eyes searching her soul in him. Is it even possible she wondered. Several times she tried to shrug off the rising heart beat. He settled her on the back seat, turned on the ignition immediately turning the heating next. He reached to her legs removed her shoes & checked her socks. She curled her feet as he reached to rub her feet. She hissed aap rahene dijiyen

 

 

he looked at her puzzled .. why she suddenly refereed to him as aap she had million of questions in her mind.. biggest of all how could it be him.. but some part of her wanted to believe it. But there were still so many questions unanswered. How silly she could get!!! their family has every one.. Daadi. Dev. Meera.. maanav.. Her Maan was a family person… thats wat she believed. This guy is no where close to her Maan. ..

Mk caressed her ankle with the back of his hand. He was losing to her for sure.. she folded her legs & held them closer.. her resistance only drew him more.. his hands had the will of his own. He freed her from the jacket.. pulling her closer.. she was lost in her believe of not wanting to believe. Just the thought it could be him her resistance was weakening.  He caressed her cheek she stared into his eyes still fighting a battle that she had lost even before it had began. He tucked a wet lock behind as  shiver ran down his spine.

“tumaren saat na jaane kasien sukan miltha hain,” he whispered in her ear, sliding his hand under her palm, lifting her left hand up, kissing them softly while sliding his between the gaps of hers. He slides closer to her, she was so warm..he felt relaxed. His head rested on her shoulder. His temple pressed against her cheek. He wanted to make her his in every way possible .. but his conscious was still not letting him!! those vows.. but her acceptance.. oh my my he was so drawn into her. He pulled away reluctantly.. she looked at him dazed at loss.. realizing how vulnerable she was.

Rest of their journey was silent. Geet remained very silent while Maan was felt so contented. He was sure going to make her his. He had never felt so much better. Geet sat looking out of the window trying very hard to relate him to her Maan.. she couldn’t.

He dropped her in the hostel after placing a soft peck on her cheek. She still looked drawn.

He was so happy today.. like a burden was removed from his heart .. soul. He couldn’t have felt better. not realizing where he placed it.

Geet was not at all in peace. She immediately booked her flight to india very next day. When she boarded the flight she got a call from Sam. Geet was little confused seeing the number.. sam � hi Geet Geet � ji sam � this is sam Geet was lost � hi sam � thanks Geet Geet was still confused � ji? Sam � thanks .. thanks a lot for giving me back my Mk Geet smiled weekly � ji Sam thanked her again & again before disconnecting the call.

Geet didn’t know why her heart ached. In last 2 days she had felt so many emotions.. all new & unrecognized. She tried a lot to calm herself but her heart was no way in control. She couldn’t tell her confusion to any one .. it didn’t make sense. There were so many reasons he can’t be Maan.. but then… only she knows how she managed to wait until she reached Delhi to home.

Daadi had just finished her evening pooja when Geet walked in with her luggage. Daadi paced & hugged her. It was more than 2&half years since she had seen Geet. Daadi kissed her lovingly.. caressed her cheek.. complaining she had lost wt. Geet just hugged her tightly scared. She didn’t know how to tell Daadi or ask her. It would be like raising a false hope if it was not true. She held on to Daadi ..so long that Daadi began to get worried.

After almost an hr she made her way to the room & settled. Daadi came with milk for her. Geet hid her tears & turned her back. Daadi immediately took her in arms � kya huwa beta Geet lips trembled � wo Daadi.. wo.. Daadi caressed her � haan beta Geet – Daadi humari shaadi ki koi photos hain kya she asked breaking down Daadi choked in emotions.. this girl was still thinking of Maan.. it has been more than 4yrs now. How was she ever going to move on like this Geet cried

Daadi didn’t want her to see any of those pics. It will only bind her more to him. Thats why she didn’t even let her know when the photographer had send in the wedding album. She had told Nakul to hide it from her then.

Daadi went to her cupboard & brought it to her. Daadi hesitated, Daadi thought.. may be at Pari’s wedding she got upset or something. But this was not a solution. Geet looked so broken.. her eyes looked as if she hasn’t slept for few days. daadi was feeling so lost for words Daadi � rehna do na beta Geet fluttered her lashes taking the album from her hand.
Daadi couldn’t bare to see her like that.. she just left her alone with the album.

Geet touched the maroon golden album.. their name engraved together.. fresh layer of tears poured. The first pic was of the most beautiful bride.. & next to her was the most handsome him!!! Maan himself.. the crisp beard.. the red teeka that adored his forehead.. she shied for the first time in years.. it was him.. those eyes!!  her eyes flooded!!!!  

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